Let Go & Let God!

So I get that I'm not where I'm supposed to be... I get that I need to let go and let God.... I'm just not sure quite how I need to execute that. Maybe I'm trying too hard. Or maybe I'm trying to move in so many directions at one time that I'm really not going anywhere.... That's probably it. I'm going to do my best to just chill out and let it happen. Because that's the only way I'm going to be able to get anything accomplished, is by handing it over to Him. I know it's time for a new season in my life. I'm tired of feeling this way and I'm tired of living this life. I want more. The only question is, how far will I fall and how far will I go before I completely surrender? Hopefully not too far.... I just know that I'm getting sick of this. Literally sick. But I have faith. And I was thinking about this the other day. Some people say that when you are angry or depressed and you still lift your hands and praise God, even though you don't mean it whole-heartedly, it's hypocritical. But that could not be farther from the truth. I'm reminded of a song that we sing in church sometimes, "I never lost me hope. I never lost my joy. I never lost my faith. But most of all, I never lost my praise." I think that if I had done what I felt like doing and not even showed up for church that I would've been alot worse off. Atleast I cared enough about it to try, even when I didn't feel anything or like I was making a difference. It taught me to praise thru everything, no matter what... So I guess that's what I'll do now. I hope I find myself thru this.